Friday, March 28, 2008

Happy Birthday My Sweet Boy!

One day, not long ago, Alexis came home from school. After discarding her backpack and eating her snack, she walked into my bedroom carrying a bottle of bright red fingernail polish and she said, in a very bossy tone, "I need you to put this on me before we go to dinner." I stopped what I was doing just long enough to grant her request. As I began painting her nails, she watched closely and then said, "This is such a beautiful color." I laughed.

She knows beautiful when she sees it. As does her brother - especially when he was small. Sometimes when we would go to Wal-Mart and wander through the jewelry department, there was a period (when he was three or four) that every time he saw a necklace with glistening crystals (plastic), he would just have to have it. He would hold the necklace in his little hands and look at me with those big brown eyes and say, "It's just beautiful, Mama." I always agreed.

One time, he saw a bunch of these necklaces in five colors and begged to have them. I bought them for my little boy and he wore them proudly, everywhere. He wore them around the house and when he would go out to the yard. I would look out the window and there I would see him with his beautiful necklaces wrapped around his neck - chasing after the dog, throwing rocks or climbing up a tree.

Some people worried that I would buy necklaces for my son, but not me, or his father either. We knew it was not threatening to our way of thinking. And, if one day he were to show a preference for that sort of thing, well ... we will just cross that bridge when we come to it. At the time ... how could I deny him this thing he so admired - they were beautiful.

He's ten now, my little boy. Today is his 11th Birthday. He doesn't wear necklaces anymore, but if he did, I'm not sure I would be so surprised, with all the girls he has to compete with around our house.

When he was born I wrote love poems to him that hung on the walls of his nursery. The first poem I wrote was:

Dear God,

In my world of little girls
Of hair bows and dolls and lace
I never imagined a little boy
Could ever find his place

But then one day ...

I looked above
And gazed up to the sky
You opened up your heavens gates
And smiled into my eyes

You gave to me a special child
For me to call my own
A little boy so wonderful
I never could have known

He smiles across the room at me
And giggles at my touch
I can't believe you gave to me
This child I love so much

When I look into his face
Or kiss his soft warm cheek
I feel the love you have for me
And often hear you speak ...

"How is it that ...

In your world of little girls
Of hair bows and dolls and lace
You never imagined a little boy
Could ever find his place?

Don't you know ...

I choose the child ...
For each and every home?
A special soul, in every child
For each to call their own?

When I chose this boy for you
I knew he'd find his place
I knew he'd melt into your heart
And fill the empty space

I know this child
I know his name
He's now your little boy

May Billy bring you love and faith
And happiness and joy."



I could have never imagined the love and faith and happiness and joy he would bring into my life. He is so special ... this boy child of mine.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY SWEET BILLY!

WE LOVE YOU VERY MUCH!

71 comments:

Teryn said...

My little boy likes to wear his sister's (Hello Kitty and Princess) sunglasses. He's too cute.

You have beautiful kids!

Julie Pippert said...

That's a beautiful poem. :)

Julie
Using My Words

Amanda said...

You are the kind of mom that makes the world a better place with the confident, accepting and beautiful people you raise.

elexisb said...

That is sooo sweet. You are a fabulous writer. And, holy smokes, is he cute or what?!!

jessica said...

oh kellan that's so wonderful. you have a sensitive, HANDSOME son! happy birthday, billy!

Melanie said...

Happy Birthday to a handsome young man!

What a beautiful poem, Kellan!

My Goodness said...

Beautiful tribute to your boy child!! Happy Birthday!!

My son...loves to dress up in his older sister's princess attire...much to my husband's dismay.

My boy...I could never imagined how differently I would love him...it's.just.different. And I love it!!

amanda said...

happy, happy birthday to your sweet boy!!

hope you are feeling even better on this super special day :)

tommie said...

happy birthday....may all your wishes come true

Jenn @ Juggling Life said...

Happy Birthday--to both of you!

Ness said...

Happy Birthday!

I'm sure the best present you could get would be for your mom to get home from the hospital and feel good again.

Take care, Kellan!

Karen MEG said...

What a beautiful poem for a very special, and well loved little boy!

Happy birthday Billy!!!

(A little heartbreaker you've got there Kellan - what a handsome guy!)

Maria said...

Happy Birthday! March 28 is my son's bday! He is 12!

Tammy said...

Oh geez.....I'm bawling! What a beautiful poem. They grow up so fast.

I am so lucky to have a son with my 3 daughters as well. Everyone needs a little boy. lol. Eric came over tonight for a bit (posted pictures of him on my blog) and I noticed that HE NEEDS TO SHAVE HIS UPPER LIP! Oh that really pulled on my heartstrings!

Your son is a cutie. He's going to be one heck of a good looking young man! Please tell him happy birthday.

And, I'm so glad you are beginning to feel better. :)

Melek said...

what a great poem. you two look a lot alike :)

Angela said...

Happy birthday to your sweet son
Glad you are feeling a bit better

KAYLEE said...

hope you are better soon!!!

LaskiGal said...

Beautiful, beautiful! And what a lovely poem. Happy Birthday little man . . .

What a wonderful mama . . .

Kelli said...

Happy Happy Birthday to Billy.

Dawn said...

Happy Birthday Billy! I love the poem. What a sweet, heartfelt post. You are a beautiful family.

Julie said...

Wow! Look at all the hair he had as a baby! Such a cutie!!... I loved the poem, it's so touching (and so true!)

Happy Birthday Little Billy!

bermudabluez said...

He IS a beautiful boy, Kellan! Happy Birthday to little Billy!!Your writing is really something. So glad that you are feeling well enough to blog again! And it's nice that you can do it while you are recuperating. Take it very, very slowly....it will take time for you to get your strength back! Hugs, Jeanne

Family Adventure said...

Happy Birthday, Billy!

Beautiful writing, Kellan, as always. Lovely poem.

Maybe one day we can get our two 11 yr olds together! :)

Heidi

kim-d said...

HAPPY, HAPPY 11TH BIRTHDAY, BILLY!!

Kellan, that is such an incredibly beautiful poem; JUST BEAUTIFUL. But when I look at that baby pic of your Sweet Boy, I can imagine that it was easier for you to write it than it would seem. I truly believe that you DO have a very special boy. I think that being surrounded by sisters now will serve him well later on...when girlfriends come into the picture--like, next week. HA! Seriously, from what you have already shared about Billy, this is a boy who already "gets" females. We need more of those!

Have a wonderful, wonderful day, Kellan Renee!

Beth said...

What a beautiful poem! Happy Birthday Billy!

Anonymous said...

An absolute outstanding poem. My daughter, who is about 12 years older than my youngest son, would paint his finger/toe nails, put makeup on him. The whole works. And he's just fine. Happy Birthday, Little Billy.
Margie

Jen said...

Oh, that is such a beautiful poem - it made me weepy. He is so adorable and sweet. Happy Birthday to Billy!

Christine said...

happy birthday billy!

I can't believe i just found out that your are in the hospital! take care, you.

{{hugs}}

Running on empty

kimmy said...

Happy Birthday Billy. That poem you wrote for you son is beautiful. Glad to hear that you are feeling better!

Have a nice weekend!

Kimmy

One Scrappy Gal said...

What a sweet little boy!!

Happy birthday Billy!! Hope you have a wonderful day!!

I'm so happy to see you're back too. Hope you're feeling better. :)

Kathryn said...

Oh, Kellan! That was absolutely beautiful! That is such an amazing and precious poem. I am just bawling. How wonderful.
Happy Birthday, Little Billy!

frog ponds rock... said...

Happy Birthday!! to your Young man..

WooHoo and lots of hip hip hoorays as well..

cheers kim

xxx

suz said...

Beautiful!
You are a fantastic MOM!
He is lucky to have you as you are to have him!

THopgood said...

I'm speechless. That was just beautiful.

girlymom said...

What a beautiful poem!
HaPpY BiRtHdAy BiLLy!

Queen of My Domain said...

Happy Birthday Little Billy! What a beautiful poem you wrote for him. You have such a way with words.

Melissa said...

Happy Birthday, Billy! Feel better, Kellan!

Catizhere said...

So, SO glad that you are feeling better.

Happy Birthday Billy!

Courtney said...

Okay, you just made me cry. How beautiful and happy birthday little billy! What a beautiful little boy and he looks almost exactly the same now (with clothes on)!!!

Bradley's Mom said...

Wonderful post!

Happy birthday to Billy, and hope you will be home soon and more on the road to recovery!

Linda

sting said...

happy birthday Billy! he is indeed special and I had always enjoyed your posts on him... may he grow up to be handsome and smart :-)

and do take care and hope you fully recover soon..

Mimi said...

Happy, Happy Birthday and Many Years to your sweet boy!

And, I hope you are better soon. Prayers and hugs.

dlyn said...

Happy Birthday to your sweet boy! Hope you get to come home soon!

Laurie M. said...

Happy birthday to both of you! I love his baby picture- so cute!

bren j. said...

Gee...aside from being a lot taller, Billy looks pretty close to his brand-new-baby-self!
Happy Birthday (not-so-little-anymore) Billy!

joan said...

What a beautiful poem Kellan! Happy Birthday to Billy!

imbeingheldhostage said...

What a beautiful poem (to go with the beautiful boy). Writing like that-- that's why I come back again and again. You always manage to say what this Mom is feeling, but in words I can't quite come up with.

Heather said...

He is a heartbreaker, indeed! Happy Birthday! My son used to love shiny necklaces, too. He'd wear beaded necklaces all day. It was hilarious, him running around naked with nothing on but a necklace.

Joanna said...

Love the poem - as I fall on floor and pay homage to your writting ability. :)

Happy Birthday Billy! Hope you get released early for good behavior, Kellan.

Elaine A. said...

That poem made me well up, how perfectly, wonderfully sweet and full of love..

Happy Birthday to your son.

So glad to hear you are feeling better. Hope you come home soon.

Steph said...

Happy Birthday Billy!!!! You have an awesome mom!

katy said...

I'm glad you are getting better. NOw you have to take some time after you get home and make sure you are fully recovered before you do too much.
I always made up poems for my kids too...

truth said...

That is so very sweet. I remember painting my sons fingernails when he was little and watching him twirl in his sister's dress. Having 4 sisters, it just didn't seem fair they got all of the frill stuff.

I worry more about how he would have turned out if I hadn't let him enjoy the fluffy stuff. He grew out of it too.

Stacie said...

Happy birthday to a very handsome boy!

Amy said...

So glad you're getting better and should be able to go home tomorrow..I would have been back sooner but I was out sick as well..LOL..anyway Happy Birthday to your sweet Little Billy and those are the sweetest words a Mama could say..and the sweetest pictures ever!

Pam said...

Happy Birthday billy- beautiful post!

JCK said...

I absolutely LOVE the little Billy stories! Happy Birthday to your beautiful boy!

Ann(ie) said...

Happy Birthday to such a handsome boy!!

You have much right to be proud, mama.

Sniz said...

What a sweet tribute to your son! He's adorable! Happy birthday, Billy.

Becky said...

What a beautiful poem about your Billy. And what a darling baby picture.

Happy Birthday, Billy!

Glad you're on the mend, too, Kellan! We've missed you in bloggyville!

One Scrappy Chicklet said...

Happy Birthday Little Billy.
Kellan,
Your poem brought tears to my eyes.

Hope Little Billy has a great day.

Tami

Toni said...

Happy Birthday, Momma and Billy!

So glad you are back!

OHmommy said...

Happy birthday.

Beautiful poem
Beautiful boy
Beautiful you.

Leah said...

I ought to start carrying tissues around when I read your blog! That was beautiful. Happy #11 to your son! He's obviously well-loved and I assume his day will be fabulous!!!

PS My middle son (now just shy of four years old) used to just BAWL when big sister Emily wouldnt' let him wear her "pretties" (hats, necklaces, tutus, crowns, etc), and I have MANY MANY MANY pictures of him in girly dress-up stuff, HAPPY AS YOU PLEASE. Oh, and generally toting around a babydoll or two as well. Didn't scar him one bit and he's ALLLLLLLLLLLL boy for now. LOL Glad to hear other parents didn't force the boy/girl role-play issues with their children...

Anna said...

So sweet! Great birthday post, Kellan! Glad to hear you're home and recovering...we've missed you!

CY said...

That was such a sweet and lovely poem. You have such good talents.

HRH said...

So sweet and happy birthday.

gina said...

What a beautiful poem and a touching post Happy Birthday to your little boy! I am so glad you are finally home and on the mend.

The Boyds Family said...

Kellan,
What a beautiful post. That poem gave me chills. Very touching.

Happy Birthday Billy!!

PS. Look at all that hair!! ;)

Patti said...

He is so handsome! What a great kid! Happy Happy Birthday Billy!

Cathy said...

What a lovely post! Happy birthday!!

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