Saturday, December 22, 2007

Letters To Santa

The other night, as I was turning out his light and walking out of his room, Little Billy said to me, "Night Mom. I'll love you forever and more."

I turned back, walked over to his bed and I gave him a big hug and said, "Me too - forever and more!"

He is so sweet - my boy.

We were at his football awards ceremony recently and he said, while sitting at a picnic table eating our pizza, "When am I going to make my Christmas list to send to Santa (Christmas being 9 days away)?"

I was surprised. It was odd timing and there were some of his football buddies nearby - I was surprised by the question and that he asked it where one of his buddies might very well hear it. I said, "Well ... I already made your list - I sent Santa the list of things you told me you wanted - along with Alexis' and the girls' lists. I had to send them - gotta get the list there, you know."

He looked confused. "What did you put on my list?" he was so serious.

"Well - I put some of the things that you have been telling me that you wanted. The list has been sent," I said, trying to discourage him from now trying to add anything more to this list - as I have BOUGHT all of his gifts already ;)

He then says, "How does Santa get this list - all those letters?"

This is my 10 year old son - who I had figured really doesn't believe in Santa anymore, but has just been keeping that information to himself, as kids do, in order to ensure that he will still be getting gifts from the Jolly Fella. And yet, here he was asking me this question ... so seriously. And it occurs to me that he is not smiling. He is not joking - he wants to know - for real.

So, I say, "Well ... they take them up there - to the North Pole. I guess they have some place they deliver them - like a special box or house or something and then Santa sends someone for them. I don't know, really. I think there is some magic involved - like ... the letters just vanish and end up in Santa's hands (*mom stumbling for a plausible story - not doing a very good job - sheesh*). I think it's kind of like God," I said, and then re-thunk that comment and said, "But, not really."

He listened to all of this crap I was spewing and then said, "I just hope you put all the right stuff on my list."

Well, okay.

On the upside ... I honestly didn't know that he still believed in Santa. I loved that he still does believe in Santa. I loved that he is still so innocent and sweet and just a little boy ... that still believes in Santa. I was so sure he wasn't much of any of those things - anymore. I was wrong and I was so pleased. He was so sweet and at that moment he was totally dependent on me to keep this Christmas fantasy going - for him. I loved that I could do that for him - it was truly a magical moment because ... it will surly be the last time he honestly believes. I loved that he was still wide-eyed and curious and ... I loved that I underestimented his imagination and his innocence. I loved that ... for a while longer ... he is still my little boy.

43 comments:

Brooke said...

Awwwww...I wish Madeline still believed!!!! I just threaten her with, "If you don't believe, you don't get any presents!"

I do still have Jack who is 3 and for the first year is excited that Santa will be bringing presents! It does no good though to threaten him into being good...he doesn't care if Santa's making a list!!!! :))

I love your new page!!!

OHmommy said...

Awwww... he is such a sweet boy. You must be so proud! Merry Christmas.

Andrea said...

What a wonderful moment for you!

p.s. good cover-up MOM!!

Kathryn said...

That is so precious. I just love those moments that catch you off guard. Hang on to them being kids as long as possible, right?

multipleblessings said...

Cute story!... I probably would have played off the Santa Clause movies with Tim Allen! *rofl*

pb&j in a bowl said...

That is so sweet. My 10yr old niece found all of the receipts from last year's Santa gifts and was heartbroken. We just assumed she already knew.

JCK said...

Oh, hold on to those moments... What a gift that he still believes. And loves you forever and more.

Dawn said...

Your boy is so sweet and you are such a kind and sensitive mom for noticing what he really believed and going along with it.

carrie said...

That is adorable! Hold onto that magic for as long as you can.

ps. I hope he gets everything he asked for . . .

Family Adventure said...

Don't you just want to hang on to that forever and more?? I know I do.

Heidi :)

kim-d said...

I am just starting my last work day, and then I am off until after Christmas. Reading this post at the start of my day was like receiving a gift, and I'm so glad you shared it with us. I love that Billy still believes; I love that he's growing up with the opportunity to NOT be a "short adult" before his time!!!

Awwww...bless his little 10-year-old boy heart, and also your fantastic Mom heart :)!

One Scrappy Gal said...

If it makes you feel better, I am 28 for the 7th time in my life, and I STILL believe in Saint Nick. :)

jennwa said...

What a great story!!! It is great he still gets to experience that Sant magic of Christmas. Too many kids lose it too early.
Merry Christmas !!!!

Brooke said...

What do you mean you won't win??? You got 7 right!!!! Now it's all up to luck whether I pull your name out of the hat!!!

You really did good though...my sister didn't even do as good as I thought she would!!!! :))

Merry Christmas!!!!

Pam said...

oh, what a sweet boy! I love that he still believes in Santa....let's keep them sweet and innocent as long as possible!

Karen said...

Awww, I LOVE when you find out that your all-growing-up kids aren't quite as big as you think. What a sweetie! And I love that he'll tell you he loves you, too.

That Santa thing is a tricky subject, isn't it? I refuse to lie to my children, and I refuse to mix Santa in with theology because messing up their theories on God is not good. But I don't want to mess up Santa, either! Such a fine, thin line.

Suzanne said...

What a sweet boy. I don't even want to think about the time when my kids stop believing!

Katrina said...

Lucas is 9, almost 10, so we're in the same spot.

I found a free site online for letters from Santa. Lucas received his letter yesterday. The usps website has a list of places you can mail the letter so it's post marked from the North Pole (Alaska) and Santa Claus (indiana). I was too late for the North Pole but his came from Santa Claus, IN. I mailed the letter with a stamp to the postmaster there and they mark it and send it back. He was thrilled!

It may be his last year as well. At lease Santa will live on with Max for the next 8-9 years.

Stacie said...

That is so sweet.

Answering questions about Santa is so hard...we use the "he's magic" all the time to explain the unexplainable!

Anonymous said...

Kellan, I believed in Santa Claus until I was 13. Dad

Jen said...

"I'll love you forever and more". Oh man, if Dylan ever says those words to me I will be a blubbery mess. He better be careful when he says sweet things to me, because I am such a sappy, emotional mom, I will surely embarass him. I loved this post, Kellan.

Melissa said...

Wow, 10 years old and he still believe's in Santa. I think that is truly one of th emost amazing things I've heard this year. I'm surprised none of his friends have told him the 'truth' yet.

Here's hoping he has a lot more years to believe, I sure wish I did, too. ;)

Michelle O. said...

That is so sweet! I have a hard time letting the girls grow up, because I want them to stay young and innocent forever. Olive told me the other day that when she grew up, she was going to come visit me every Friday...I think I'll hold her to that!

Amy said...

oh this story just melted my heart and rekindled my faith. what a nice story!!! i just love the magic of christmas. hope you have a blessed christmas with your family.

Leah said...

yay for believers! I had the question of Santa's realness or not come up LOTS at the daycare I used to work at (age ranges of 3-11) and I used to just say "As long as there are believers, then Santa will be real." That seemed to satisfy everyone and it was a short and simple answer to the question. LOL Then the kids I nannied for got older, and they were DIDN'T believe in Santa, we'd talk about how the spirit and IDEA of Santa is real and how it inspires people to give to each other and get along and to help others, etc, and in THAT sense, Santa is real.

I hope your son believes for as long as possible, and I hope my children do as well!

Eileen said...

I just love this!! So very sweet. I wish there really was a Santa....
XOXO

Maria said...

Oh that's so sweet! Keep him young as long as you can! My 11 year old doesn't believe anymore, but he likes being in on the secret for my 3 and 7 year olds.

forgetfulone said...

That is so sweet! My kids believed until this year, and it's so sad when they don't anymore. I also thought they were just "believing" to ensure they received gifts, but they truly, really, believed. They were 10 last yeart and last Easter, to avoid having anyone tease them, I had to be the one to break it to them. No Easter bunny, no Santa, no tooth fairy. I wanted to cry. They aren't babies anymore.

Thanks for sharing this post. Merry Christmas!

joan said...

Great post Kellan! My little boy is 28 and is going to be a father of a son in March. I think he will always be my little boy sandwiched in between those two crazy girls. LOL If I don't get back to visit before Christmas, I hope you and your family have a wonderful one. I have so enjoyed my visits to your blog. You are a gifted writer. Merry Christmas!

Karen MEG said...

Kellan, that must have been such a precious moment for you. He is still your little boy, always will be I'm sure, but it's moments like these that are just so special! I suspect that my little guy suspects... but I'm not too sure either!

morsics said...

Oh, hold on to that innocence as long as you can. It's so precious. I just want to give your little boy a big hug! How sweet!

Val Cox said...

that is so sweet, what a great mom you are! Val

Nicki said...

So sweet! I still believe in Santa, I even wrote a letter to him on my blog today. How do you expect to get what you want?

Anna said...

What a little honey-pie! Of COURSE he wants to be sure his list is right! ;-)

Queeny said...

When my oldest was 10, i decided it was time to tell him the truth. Funny thing is, he didn't want to NOT believe. He was in denial for about a year. He kept bringing up Santa here and there, and I would remind him, "You DO know that Santa's not real, right?" And he would go, "Yeah, I know," but sounding disappointed. So now I don't know if I should tell my younger ones or just let them figure it out on their own.

Andrea said...

Awww! That is too sweet...and I loooove you story...haha!!! Don't worry, mine would have probably sounded a million times more pathetic...but hey, we gotta come up with SOMETHING to tell them, right? :)

kristi said...

Our post office has a mailbox labeled "letters for Santa" and by the way your story is adorable!

Jen said...

Aw! How Cute!

A friend of mine has a special magic Santa box, and the kids put letters in one night. By morning, Santa has magically written back.

Bren said...

How cute is that? I think you did a great job explaining everything!

Shellie said...

Awwww! We are at the I will try to believe because my friend gets more presents if he believes stage.

Irene said...

So sweet. Just a very sweet and touching story. I want to give him a hug!!!

Kristin said...

Hey Kellan, that santa picture is from one of my very favorite childhood books! look at brownie, sloughing off behind the desk and that sort of thing.
Merry Christmas - Your children look very happy and very - themselves- do you know what i mean?

patti_cake said...

Awwwwww I hope mine believes for a long time also!

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